As soon as I'm ready to tell you all about the magnitude of His gifts I get blindsided by something and fall off the horse, so to speak.
Back up 24 hours.
Yesterday, I told you all about how I had been stretched to trust fully in God. Then, I opened a letter right around bedtime that said that Riley's appointment is November 6th, not November 20-something-another as I had written down in my mind.
No big deal, right?
I've mentioned before that we fully rely on the contents of Riley's God Pocket to take care of Riley's medical needs, including transportation to and from his appointments. Knowing that the appointments were a month away I had already began to plan ahead. I even received a financial blessing at my back door last week and had placed it in the envelope for that purpose. It was a gracious plenty, but won't cover all of our expenses.
When I realized the appointment was changed I immediately flipped out and let panic set in. There are some very specific needs to make this particular appointment happen and freaking out just seemed like the proper response at the time.
What I failed to do was stop and pray. To thank God for His provision before I could even see it. To praise Him for the way He orchestrates His provision in our lives.
No, I just went slap crazy in my head instead.
It wasn't my greatest moment.
The point is, God reminded me of the post I had just written to you just hours before. He spoke of that trust I claimed to have and that faith I keep bragging about up one side and down the other.
As if that weren't enough. I rose this morning to find a text from a friend that said "how can I help?" to which I replied "no."
Ok, did I not read my very own blog post yesterday? Who writes this blog?
God stepped in again.
I sent her a message back a few minutes later saying that I was wrong and we worked that out.
I failed. I am so thankful for His grace and mercy. I am so thankful that He doesn't give me a good whack on the back of my head when I lose my mind and try to control His blessings for us.
Praise God for His provision even in my forgetfulness.
God has proven Himself to us faithfully over the years.
He's got this too.
Maybe tomorrow we can get to the other stuff!
God is good, all the time!